Crossroads

I've had this cross that my mom gave me when I was a little girl for years now and I've never worn it. I don't consider myself religious but I guess you could say I'm agnostic. I untangled it tonight and put it on.I was expecting it to burn into my skin or leave a ring around my neck. You know because I don't practice any faith or belief in God. Okay so maybe I over exaggerated a little bit but, I did feel something, I think. At first I felt like I was wearing it to pretend to fit in, like I was believing in something like everyone else. Then I realized who am I trying to fool I can't put that much hope into a thing as uncertain as religion.I'm afraid of what happens after I die, I'm afraid of the unknown.That is why I can't commit to a religion.I know it sounds weird but I couldn't let myself be that vulnerable.